I'm finally back on posting??? Lols...

Awwwwhhhhh... Was damn lazy

to post... Haiz... It had been

weeks ever since I last touched

on blogging due to my laziness...

Simplicity... You could say I cutted

off my communication line with

the outside world except my family

(whom I face everyday), dramas

(where I watch on the TV & whenever

I touch my comp), classmates(2 weeks

of extra curriculum and nthg more

till next year)... Hmmm... that

should be all... But honestly I don't

feel that it is a bad thing... At least

you won't be bothered with those

things that you can't be bothered with

or don't want to be bothered with...

Don't you think so? I suddenly felt

so lost... I have lost confidence in my

relationship circle... I told myself:

'1 year! Just 1 more year! You can do it!

You must'nt give up! Who are you? JOQY!

Don't ppl think that you are invincible

such that you can handle everything

and be immune to feelings? You can't fall

in front of those who are awaiting your fall!

The year would pass even faster than now!

YOU CAN DO IT! You don't really need

them do you? They don't need you at all

or anymore! Give up! Just like you

have done it before!' I always have

a habit... Before I start posting each time...

I would start by reading blogs of people

whom I am close with... I did the same

as for today... But I regretted it... I

shld'nt have done that... In that case...

I would not have to know the

painful truth! Out of the sudden...

I really had the urge to cry! But I

did not and would not do so! To

others... I am strong and could handle

everything... Similarly... I can do

it this time round... You guys thought that

I knew nothing and continued on with your

craps... Well... I would just say I played

along with all of you so as to maintain

our "___ship" as it is... I had never thought

of exposing all of you! But I really couldn't

bear with it anymore! I want to stop the ship!

I don't mind myself getting down the ship

in the middle of the deep blue sea and

swimming back to the harbour myself in

search of my other ships to hop on...

But why didn't I do so? This is because I

cherish and treasure the ship that I have

built up myself... In the end... none

understand the hardship and

torment I went through but instead...

tried means and ways to separate the

ship, spoil the ship, destroy the ship

due to unnecessary gossips and

people coming out all of a sudden...

This time round... I'm bent on leaving the ship

if things goes on as it is... I can't

do much anymore... I really can't seriously...

I'm sick and tired of those... I don't think I

can go on  anymore... Well... I just want to

say that I know what have been going on all

along the way but I chose to keep quiet but

none appreciated it... Once again... I am

going to cut off all ties I have with all of you...

If the ship can really be broken off so easily, it can't be a ship anymore...